And so they set off to the local pub and brewery to think about other things for a while. Just gotta relax sometimes and let new ideas in to tinkle around for a bit...
Archive for ‘April, 2017’
There's still a rather loud voice in my head that gets in the way of everything creative. It yells at me about how bad I am. How I'll never measure up to anything I love or anyone I care about. I'll never be an animator. I'll never be an artist. I wasted my life, and now all that's left is to stare up through the glass ceiling at everything better than me and better than what I'll ever do. Younger, better, stronger willed people will make the world a better place than I could ever make it.
Sometimes I fight back. Most of the time I lose.
But sometimes it goes away, and I can make comics. Art. Things I can be happy about and contribute to the world. Even if it's only a handful of people.
I hope and pray that someday that voice will give up and go away for good. Bullies don't do that though. They never go away. They need to be destroyed and driven off... I think the only thing that could ever do that would be to secure a job as an animator somewhere locally. To complete my commission list, to get all my Patreon rewards done...
And that voice clearly doesn't want that to happen. I don't like thinking of myself as broken or faulty, but that's what the voice has drilled into my skull.
Sometimes my comic will be late because the voice is too loud for me to think straight. I'm sorry. I'm working on it with friends, family, and logic. Thank you for your patience.
Mandatory Recap Time!
Fitting Dr. Von Harris' backstory into a single comic was difficult to write and balance out, plus I got a big setback yesterday when 3/4 of the inks disappeared into the void unexpectedly and unrecoverably... but it only took me 15 minutes to rebuild and comicry was complete in about an hour or so!
If you have any questions about these characters, please respond in the comments so I can clear things up or help you folks understand what's going on. I'm in need of feedback on how clear I'm making my storyline and would love to hear what you think and like or dislike. Thanks!
Whoops. Trying to find the energy to draw more. Little behind, but still planning to catch up... hope I can though. Still so much art I need to do and I never feel energetic enough to do it all...
Sorry for the late strip today, still trying to focus my energy and disengage a little bit more from World of Warcraft to get more art done and worked on these days.
I've got BLFC to prepare for, and apparently both Anthrocon and MWFF have already passed by for room options, so I'll need to find someone with a slot available when I have time and can focus on that...
It's tough to imagine just how hard it would be to be imprisoned for thirty years against your will. There's a lot of rage and built up frustration that Early's only been able to take out on trees or rocks, and through scaring the daylights out of anyone she caught wandering in the forest at night... but what about those that never returned? What were their fates, then, if not a cruel demise?
It's interesting to be able to mold someone's view of a 'reality' to fit ones own ends and plots. I see a lot of this 'framing the facts' going on in our current political world and it's frequently just too much to bear most days... but when the tone can be played for enhancing a story and for bringing the truth to light in the proper way... you can make the world a better place even with a little carefully crafted deception... hopefully.
Early was still a bad person. She may not have hurt anyone, but she did cause a lot of trouble outside of anyone else's control... but the Demons would have found someone else to manipulate if she hadn't been who she was... and many more lives may have been drastically different as a result...
Who's to say what's truly wrong and truly right anymore?